| HELLO BLOG.
It's ONCE AGAIN, been a while since I wrote.
But since I've lost my diary, and I can't dance to let my stress out,
I've decided to post my thoughts back here.
Currently, it's SINGAPORE AUDI FASHION WEEK, and yeah...I wouldn't be talking about it
unless I'm involved in it.
Been dressing for shows like d'squared,star creation,raoul and the next few ones will be warehouse, tiffany and co, marchesa and roberto cavalli.
Under all the big brands, pretty people and beautiful outfits, I think about how everything actually comes from the very bottom of the
natural cycle of life itself.
Learnt a lot from this and though I'd like to say that I'm enjoying every bit of it, it's sad to say that there must be a limit to the greatness of it all. Not to sound pessimistic or anything.
I guess when you're up somewhere, there's a point where you do need to go back to basics and teach yourself the foundation of everything again. Just to remind yourself to stay grounded.
Though, I must admit I haven't always been that way in the past months, but I'm growing from it.
There has to be a mirror to keep you aware of what's changing with yourself.
Then again, even when you've realised that you've disappointed yourself and others who care about you,
you can't tell yourself that it's the end because you've let yourself down and them too.
Of course, you can't pretend it didn't happen, but you've got to pick up from where you left off and do something
good about it.
I've been in both positions before. Trying to be the one to be forgiven ain't easy because you're not in control of the situation and anymore and being the one who's giving someone another chance. Either ways, each has it's own difficulties.
It's been a struggle to fall over and over again and have to be lift your legs up and walk again.
But through failure, is it only possible that we become better at what we do.
That's if you look at the situation positively.
Though young as my age has made me out to be, my mind seems to be growing at the speed of lightning.
Picking up lessons from past experiences and having to humble myself and let others help me.
Pain in the butt as it all will be in the beginning, the aftermath of it the whipping will teach you some things.
It's always a choice again, whether you want to make full use of that second chance.
*takes a deep breath*
Vanessa, my bestfriend is leaving for australia to study soon. I'm going to miss her muchos.
Wish she could stay and accompany me for awhile longer, but I'm so very proud of her and I do want
her to taste life outside of this little red dot. If there's one thing I'll thank her for, is for not judging me and guiding me
onto the right track each time I went off course. Love her for everything she's done for me and for our friendship.
So cheers to the most awesome bestfriend a girl could ever have.
To failures and friendships,
andy
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